We are so small, we humans. The odds against any one of us existing are so stupendous the numbers dwarf us. A hundred million of our father’s sperm—sifted down to a few dozen that reached the neighborhood of one particular ovum at one fleeting moment—were other possible candidates for life that would not be you or me.
Yet here we are, in a solar system that is a speck in a field of stars. Creation is like that, a great lotto of life, a sea of rushing graces and missed chances.
In all the happenstance of history and space, the gospel tells us that the good lasts. It is worth the vast expenditure of matter and energy to gain the good. It is worth all the misfortune to reap the benefit. Fruit grows amid the weeds. Life and waste walk hand in hand. Gain and loss are partners. But the loss, the waste, is endured for the sake of the yield.
What is more, the fruit starts so small. Like one act of love, one time of kindness, one moment of courage, growth is imperceptible in the seeding. The mustard seed, once so tiny, becomes a great shrub, the home to wayfaring birds of passage. So it is in Jesus’ other analogy for the reign of God: a bit of yeast permeates and quickens the batch of flour.The use of parables, a tradition rooted in wisdom and rabbinical literature, is a hallmark of Jesus’ teaching.
No doubt the particular images of mustard seed and leaven struck home not only to his hearers, but also to the early Christian community, quite conscious of the worldly insignificance of Jesus and its own smallness in contrast to Judaism and the Roman Empire. They believed the reign of God would come, just as surely as the harvest, despite obstacles and setbacks.
But there is a psychological dimension to these parables that far transcends the particularities of history and circumstance.
We are so afraid of our smallness. On the scale of matter, big is better. What is large is impressive. The grand is good. The small seems weak and vulnerable. But thinking in this way, we fail to see the wisdom of life, the promise of smallness, the world not of mere matter, but of spirit.
Have we not all felt the grace that rises from the least? The early free smile of a child? The first kiss? The initial act of kindness? The fragile promise made with full heart? Each of us, so inconsequential in history’s chamber, so lost in vast spaces measured by light years, bears a power not quantified by weight and measure.
The human heart, small and frail by cosmic standards, rises to heights out of its very frailty when it loves, hopes, and believes. This is what the reign of God is all about. And it is in our hearts that God’s Spirit moves.
That tiny instant, in which we began, bears fruit, not only in a lifetime that itself is small, but in love that inhabits a realm beyond the reign of size and number.